Tuesday, September 22, 2009

what makes music better than anything else

What makes music better than anything else
I am aware that this is casting the net a bit too wide. But I took a long walk tonight and all of this is what I thought about as I was listening to my ipod and watching the sun set. Can anyone make you feel the way a certain song does, every time? The answer is no because every experience with a person will be a different feeling than the time before that. A song is like a small inexpensive time machine. It will make you feel the same thing you felt the first time you heard that song. It is something you can count on. A never fail feeling.
A friend once told me, “You should stop dating because of how it affects your musical tastes”. It wasn’t so much the dating as when the inevitable breakup part of the relationship came. All of the music that I was exposed to during that time would have to be thrown out and I just hated it. I couldn’t listen to those songs because I knew that now they would fail me. I was happy then with that person and they had failed me really. I still have some songs that are happy songs that if I here them just make me sad. It’s like a lie. For instance, “All You Need Is Love”. On that day, that song played, and I just felt like that’s bull crap. It is ruined for me because of bad timing.
I was walking tonight and one song played and I just smiled. I know now that I am a different person and they are all the same. It was really for the best. Like a one hit wonder, you like it for the moment and then it’s over. No one’s fault really. It just wasn’t as good as long lasting groups like the beatles or the eagles. You have moved on.
I sometimes wonder why I do this to myself. I will never be a rock star or write for rolling stone. All I am really truly good at is knowing music though. It will never benefit me. In guitar class in high school one of the boys told me I was the only girl that wasn’t a poser because I lived it every single day. I wish I could direct all of it at something instead of it not really being put to use at all.
I have the perfect example to prove my point. In seventh grade, the principal threw some sort of party behind the gym, I don’t remember why. A song played and to this day I feel the same way about it. Ok, I walked around the corner and out of the speakers came, “Cut My Life Into Pieces This Is My Last Resort…”. I just thought wow, that is the best song ever. It was so exciting. I still to this day love the song and when it plays, life is good.
I think it is safe to say that songs having molded me into who I am more than people have. I have put far more time and effort into loving my music. It is perfection. There is a song to describe every feeling. Kind of like a greeting card. It’s the same idea at least. Let me tell you how I feel about you in a mix. I have a mix for everything.
You know that Dr. Seuss story about sneetches? If I am a star-belly sneetch I need to find other sneetches with star-bellies. The plain-belly sneetches just don’t get it.

Monday, June 15, 2009

as a butterfly

It can be scary to strip away the cocoon that is protecting you from the outside world. But if you are willing to take that chance you will find that what you are underneath everything is so much greater than what you started out as.